Bust a ridiculous move

After watching my friends ridiculous wedding video of the first dance I am somehow inspired to just jump up and be a spazz and have a laugh. Gosh weddings and babies are going on left right and centre!

I was thinking how cool it is to have that person who is willing enough to be a spazz and have a laugh with you just for the sake of it!

I went to the movies with Mel and we saw Star Trek which was incredibly good. We also went ring shopping to get a ring size for my 21st birthday gift.

Briefly saw my nephew when Mel’s mother in law came and picked her up, Leo giggled at me in the window as I was pulling silly faces at him

So it could be a very sad week, we’ll see. Just waiting for news on Cait’s dad Terry

I feel so sad having leaving so soon after all of this but she assured me all was okay and she was coping

Worried

Last night was supposed to be a great night out celebrating Anson’s birthday and instead turned into a disaster

We were at a bar in the city when Anson got layed into by a lass. A scuffle unfolded, we are lucky we didn’t get stabbed.

It’s horrendous that someone would pick a fight with another person because of their appearance. Because a guy has long hair he looks like a serial killer? and therefore you should bash him? wtf is wrong with people? I never want to see my friends get hurt and I will protect them from that as much as I am physically capable of.

These people are complete low lives and I hope one day we don’t have these people around in these groups or gangs.

It is appalling.

Birthday photos

Just added photos from my 21st prom birthday bash

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I feel proud

I went to graduation ceremony and to my shock my name was listed 4 times in the presentation booklet they were handing out before it commenced. Then Angry Anderson gets up on stage as special guest presenter! He called my name and presented my awards! I had to get on stage four times throughout the ceremony, 4 Distinctions for Mathematics

I am over the moon!

I am waiting for official presentation ceremony photo’s but in the meantime, i got a picture with him at the after refreshments on my digicam

Always there for me

Last night proved to me how great my friends are, they talked to me about some stuff and it was really pleasant and easy. Although now I am realising, from travelling, it always takes a day or 2 for everybody to get used to being back and around each other, so yes i am expecting it to be a little weird at first but like the other times, it will be fun in no time
You just have to get used to each other, which took about a day last time and there had been a year and a half gap in visits! this time is just 5 months.

My teachers have been pretty good with calling me and giving me a hint on what chapters my exams are on so I have enough time to revise again.

3.5 weeeeekssss!

You surprise me everytime

You know those people you think you have all figured out? And then they say something really nice and really thought out and very caring and you’re like “woah, didn’t see that one coming” It’s just really interesting, and so much better having those surprises.

Let her heart and soul, just let it be

Things have really changed for me. I’m just gonna let it all out right now
My parents left me at 8, my sisters at 12, Alistair, Caitrin and now Amy.
I just cant stand the thought of loving someone and them leaving me, for whatever reason it may be
It is so hard for me to just let myself love someone or get close be it friend or more, I just can’t do it
I know myself and who I am and what I want but sometimes it just creeps up on me unexpectedly and I finally admit that I do care and love that person.
I was at the airport last  night, Amy is now living in New Zealand. I couldn’t help but think about how I will be there in 4.5 weeks to fly away on a jetplane. a part of me is scared, the other excited. I feel all kinds of things, happiness, sadness, nervousness and even hope.
I can express myself and be shut down or be embraced and either way it was worth it, whether I cried my eyes out and poured my heart out and you still left me or I told you how great of a friend you have been and how much I will miss you, Amy!
I need to take that risk just saying it all and if i win or lose the outcome will still be worth it because now I know.

So here I am and this is what I want to do.

What I did for my birthday

Tyrone is over from Sweden where he lives now with his fiance, he took me out the night before to many bars for cocktails and birthday drinks, we ended up in kings cross after midnight and celebrated my 21 turning until I got home at 6.30am. I slept in, was supposed to go to my sister Jess’ house for a birthday cake but ran out of time. Then  my friends and my sister Melissa took me out for dinner and we saw xmen origins, next day mum and dad took me out for lunch and gave me an engraved bracelet. Next up is 80s Prom night on Saturday

Edit: Photo from Prom birthday bash!

Family

Massive cake fight, awesome night

For you

Thank you for giving me your eyes
Your nose and smile
Your hands and cheeks
Your humour and laughter

I have all these qualities because of you

Thank you for giving me the gift to love and showing me what it is to love somebody
You showed me courage and faith, to always get through no matter what

It means so much when you say you are proud and you love me
Thank you for being a kind and nurturing person
When i was little you would hold me on your lap and i would fall asleep feeling safe
I would hold your hand whenever we went somewhere and you would always take me to the beach or the park
Even one day you played basketball with me and we would take the dog for a walk

These days I tell you everything and I am grateful to have you as my mum

I love you mum

The best part

I have the flu, not swine! enough alreadyyy Melissa picked me up today, she took me to show her dress for my birthday and it is wonderful! I am very excited We ate pizza at her house and I played with my nephew Leo for a while, then looked at baby photos of him. She has all the baby photos and childhood photos of me! Then when I was on my way home, a bus driver offered to drive me for free as he had finished his shift so I got a free ride home!

My dress is being sent tomorrow, hopefully it will arrive Saturday or Monday

Tuesday is my actual birthday. It’s gonna be weird this year, waking up alone.

Update soon!